On Wednesday, my art teacher showed us pictures of his art.  And he told us the stories behind them.  The story behind a lot of it was the pain of his first wife leaving him. He said it really hurt him because he had thought that marriage was forever, but he had to realize no one can really love you completely.  Afterward I just sat with my head in my hands.

Because my biggest hope for my future is to marry and love my husband and he love me forever and ever and even beyond death (though after we die, our love will be different).  I hold on to that dream when depression comes haunting back, and now the possibilities of that dream were… fading.

“Hi! What are you doing?”  I jumped (I startle super easily) and found my philosophy teacher from last semester looking over my shoulder at the drawing in front of me.  She said since the classroom door was open and she had seen me, she had decided to stroll in and say hello.  We talked a little and then she had to go.

And I bowed my head again, but this time to pray.

“God, thank you for that distraction…  I will never stop hoping or give up on You.  Please don’t ever give up on me (I know You won’t.).”

As my spiritual director told me, distraction is a big way to fight depression.  Even a few seconds can help you let go of how you are seeing things (I was looking at the dream of my future from a pessimistic human view) and look at them fresh, in the light of God’s eternal power.

“For nothing is impossible with God.” ~Angel Gabriel, as recorded in the Gospel of St. Luke, 1:37

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